hohoho.
yummy biscuits, wonderful chocs. :D
can't wait, can't wait!

i am over the rainbow!
something to cheer about.:)
i hope everything will remain the way it is, i will remain who i am and of cos, whatever i wish will come true.
at least for now.
hohoho. :D

and now i am planning for the class outing. as usual, waiting for a reply is a norm. i guess this must have made me a better person now, being patient, tolerant and so on. whatever. uh.
i wonder when will planning such things be made simple...

my god, my heart is suddenly pumping so fast. very fast indeed.
the thought of A levels is just too much for me i guess.
my hands are shaking. they are cold.

can. you. believe. it.

i felt that as i grow older
the fear gets stronger.
for one moment just now
i could feel my tear glands active again. 
uh. it's the fear again.  :(

whooppss. sorry, didn't have the mood and patience to post things up, so that  explains why this blog was left rotting.
today.... i probably one my happiest day so far this week. everything went so so well that i couldn't believe it! :)
anyway, i thought i should just leave my blog as it is until probably after my As.. i'm feeling the stress nowwww. and guess what... the upcoming thurs shall be my practical test....

today was just another horrible day for me. haha.. imagine having to go all the way to bbdc to take my evaluation for the 4th time and still not sure if i were able to pass, which of cos in the end i did...i just couldn't sleep well that night before and my dad kept saying that i am one big loser. o.O

after which i went to one of my relative's place. apparently one had lung cancer and was already in his terminal stage.. it was such a painful sight to see him in that state, unable to swallow, unable to eat... and all he was left with were skin and bones. we were told that he's left with only 1-2 months if untreated. goodness gracious, yet he doesn't know. it was such a sad way to die. now the point that i am now driving at is.. don't smoke. i didn't expect the consequences to be so severe previously and now that i know, i'm definitely against the idea. you would freak out if you cough out blood right. but imagine those people who are beside you watching...

anyway, jiajun accompanied me to watch a basketball match yesterday. we both weren't feeling very happy at the end of the day and so we camwhored. indeed, camwhoring made us feel a whole lot better altogether, be it mentally, emotionally and blah blah. hahah! cheers to jiajun!

i SWEAR i don't know what i am up to these 3 weeks. after hearing the news that perhaps the school holidays might extend, my sister and me jumped and sang. hahaha.. we've decided that we shoudn't meddle anymore. everything seems to go so rush and hush.

i actually went for sihui's big birthday sometime a week ago! something to applaud. after not seeing her for 2 years she would have thought that i had disappeared. hah! initially i thought i would have been all alone if i go but no, i met stan and xuliang and some other sihui's friends who made the atmosphere not so bad! haha.. the heels that i was wearing "ate" my toe up and the pain was terrible! imagine walking the entire day and with a "not so light" bag. UH.

Pictures that i took when i went kukup with my family.
see another day wasted.



















as usual, there were quite a bit of my screamings, my sisters; and my mum's before i actually mustered my courage to hold it.


my feminine image has long gone down the drain. haha!




it was amazing how those conversations died off.
i've always wondered times and again.
is it me?
and a whole day without smses?
what's wrong?
is it that we've gone tired of each other already?
or perhaps, you've got too many commitments?

half dead. just prepared dinner and mopped the house and washed the clothes.

it was so hard to do housework for god's sake! my sister went out for 3 consecutive days and i am all alone to do all those housework!  i even cooked today okay! someone's gonna pray hard that no one dies after eating later. haha! that's with judy's help of cos.. i just cannot stand the torment of having to stay in the kitchen for even one hour.. it was so tiring eh. imagine i don't even know how to cook and my mum changed her rice cooker to those high pressured one and i was so afraid that the lid will sprung up! cutting the mushrooms seems so easy yet i had to grab a chair and sit while cutting as it was sooooo uncomfortable having to bend half way there and cut. i got to pity my dad cos last year it was like that too. we didn't want to settle our dinner outside and so i had to cook. you know what? throughout the one entire week, all my poor daddy had was STEAMED fish, STEAMED eggs, STEAMED whatever! haha! yucks. i cannot stand deep fried stuffs not because those weren't nice but it was those splattering oil that may or may not splatter on me.. uhhhhh.

well my conclusion here is that i am a kitchen idiot. i seriously have no idea how am i going to have a family of my own next time. haha! maybe i'll have a maid or maybe... hehes... *evil thoughts* grins* ;)



anw the econs mid year was fine i guess. not very sure how i'll fare but i am definitely sure i would not get good grades. hah. i mis-read the instructions as 45mins per question! -.- dumb. i chionged all the way and in the end i was left with 30 mins more before the end of the paper. that teacher was perhaps referring to people like me, who started the paper in less than 6mins. o.O but i am happy cos today is the start of my "real" holidayzzz! 

hahah. this was taken by judy when i was in my tuition teacher's house having my math tuition. i don't know why i was so tired that day and i just cannot absorb anything. my eyes just wouldn't obey me.
in the end i fell asleep right after the tuition in his house. haha..

okay, i know this is random. hehes. actually i've got loads of pictures that i took today at the botanic gardens to show! but look at the time.. i got to arrange my stuffs and go to sleep...
maybe i'll post next time. :)

it took me quite a while to realise that May is going to end. UH. crap, i'm scared. 

both my toe nails are going to drop OFF. it freaked me out when i saw another crack on my toe nail. HAI. someone suggested that i should go to the doctor and have it remove.. hell nooooo. omg. i don't know how many buckets of tears i'll produce on top of those blood that i'll probably see. but shit, it was painful.

i regretted laughing at jiajun's driving skills now. cos i did so badly for my U-turning today! i nearly mount the kerb and i was being commented that my safety check was "urgh". after that, my leg was shivering. 2 lessons per month was indeed a wrong choice. :(
but i had a fun time today.

someone once told me that he was hungry for success. i thought he was blabbering nonsense again. he told me that he changed his way of doing things and was hungry for success. he said that some things that he was doing back then were wrong, so he decided that he should change and you know what? he did it. it was then i realise what ms usha said was really true.. i never thought that there'll be this kind of people. impressive! and i really feel happy for him.




accept it but never lose hope..
You may be disappointed if you fail,
but you are doomed if you don't try.

blissfuls moments without care.

AHHHH. i just went to cut my hair. now my fringe look disgustingly disgusting.

the worse thing is that my hair CURLSSSSSS.


sigh!!!

hahhaah... due to the fact that i am able to use the lappy now cos my sister is out "dating", i shall blog all these pictures out. hehes. i have been wanting to do so but i haven't got the chance. well, i take this chance to clear my hp pics. :)

anw, i love my tuition slot now. sat morning. hahaha.. i find that mr tan can concentrate better and not walk arounddd. hahahaha..

i just found out that some of my sec school mates who went to poly had successfully enrolled into NUS! gawwwd. i felt so horrible........ like as though it's now left with me.. my dad laughed when i told him about this today. but i think he was feeling good cos he could feel the anxiousness from me already. in the past, i don't give a damn. grrr. but talking to weijie just one day back made me feel alot better. thnks for his encouragement. haha.. he always assumes that i am good. that, made me slightly confident. he was really a changed person... :))

ANDDDDD. i really hope that jiajun and hsiufen can get admitted too. i really pray hard that all the 4 of us can get in! i'm still waiting for their call to tell me that they got admittedddddd!



this is the big "mermaid" judy.. hahha! previously she wasn't lying in this position i swear! i kept saying that she can be the fhm model. my tuition teacher laughed.


seriously i don't know when she took this.


hahaha.. i screwed my 2.4km run up. i passed but you know, with all those excuses that i always give, like forgot to bring my clothes even though i did, sick at the time to get mc for one wk, run 4 rounds instead of 6... how can i ever get good grades!! hahah!


this is junpei. hahah, i love to tease her with my name.. haha! 







LOOK AT THIS. 7X7. and joshua really solved it in a day. what's more shocking was that he solved it in classss......o.O









i got to thnk jiajun again. i got her to help me buy a cake and she got it delivered to my houseeeee. sweet. :)

 o.O

hellooooo! i'm here to blog on the stuffs that happened on my birthday! :) erm, i know it's pretty late and i haven't been blogging ever since.... n days. i'm not exactly sure if i could remember what happened on that day but i swear i'll try my best to remember okay! i bet this is going to be a very very long post cos i've got so many things to say!!

alright, i had waraku for dinner tgt with jiajun, hsiufen and sharon, my birthday buddy! hahaha! she had the same birthday date as me and what's more, she was my sec sch mate! :)) i knew them since sec one, which means we've been friends for 7 years and this is the 8th year! time really flies, i was just counting how long have i been jiajun's friend a few months back and i was so shocked that i had 8 fingers up!:))

well, as usual me and jiajun was late for our meeting.. i did my very best to chiong down to clarke quay with jiajun okay!! we even took cab down cos if we didn't, the shops would be closing by the time we reached there! and for the first time i bathed so fast that even jiajun couldn't believe it okay! i even reached jp first before jiajun reach after a while later. surprising huh!

eh, don't give me that wierd look as if you're going to question on my speed okay! i've mastered the art of chiong-ing to do things. hahaha!


jiajun had this and i shared with her cos i don't know if i liked the things there..




sharon and hsiufen shared this.


errr... woops. i shared this with jiajun. i was so hungry that i forgot to take this picture.. all the way until....




appetizing right! it looked so colorful that we decided to try it too! Haha!
 

this is sharon and her big cup of ice-cream! haha!

see, at the start when we enter this place, it's full of people. the time we left it was only us left..
so you can guess how long we took to finish our dinner! we were the last to leave!





the two pretty birthday girlssss. HAHA.


as usual, we tried to find the right spot so that we don't look "fat".


oh, after we saw sharon's and hsiufen's cheesecake, me and jiajun decided to order one too. haha..




our prezziesss.




i thought it was rather innovative for hsiufen and jiajun to make that card! it was really a beautiful card!! pretty isn't it!! :)


hahah! jiajun was quite disappointed when i told her what judy and carol gave me for present cos she got me one too! don't worry okay! I STILL LOVE THE PRESENT THAT YOU AND HSIUFEN GAVE ME!! :)) whatever you girls gave to me i'll still like it okay!! after the dinner we decided to walk and find a place to continue our girls' talk. we found such a good spot along the river but it started to rain and we decided that we should go home..










i hecked my image and squatted right in the middle of the mrt pathway to take pictures for them okay! 
haha, actually i don't really care..













hsiufen didn't want to take pictures and that's why she wasn't included inside these pictures! it was so hard to get her to camwhore with us so everytime she agrees to take pics with us, we will never say no!! anyway, lukily we didn't stay at clarke quay to chat cos when i get home it was past 12am and i got a scolding the next day since my dad was already asleep that night.. phew. if he hasn't, i'm sure i might need someone's house for shelter for that night.. hhaa...

Okay, this is the best part! though the quality of the pictures doesn't really reflect that it IS the best part cos you know... how can a sony camera be compared to a handphone cam... haha! i remembered that this was a surprise by oliver. the horrible part was that the class knew about the plans like... 3 days before i heard? OMG. initially i already knew something was going on (all thanks to the hints given by him, judy and jiajun) but i do not know exactly what.. jiajun reminded me to be careful! hahaha... carol's mouth was quite tight though, i could hardly get things out of her.. haha! yeah, oliver came over to pj. just right after the chemistry practical we went straight down to the back the canteen and before i even reached there i saw him sitting there and i knew i'm gg to malu... and i saw some teachers over that which made my face even hotter... gosh, it was like all of a sudden, the class started singing happy birthday!!! and becos the timing was like "after school" kind of thing, everyone walked to the canteen ...... haha! i got quite a shocked lah. i didn't expect oliver to hold this thing after school cos those little hints that they gave didn't lead me there!! but anyway, i had a good timeee. :)) luckily i didn't cry like most would have expected that i would!! i loveeeeed that bouquet of flowerss!! it's not rose this time and the colors are brighterr. oh oh. the 9 flowers looked abit dull cos i took it like one or two days after my birthday. 9 okay! my favourite number! :) the cake was awesome and of cos there's something that i didn't put up here. haha... it was really pretty..:)  eh, i've got to say first, i also liked the present that judy and carol gave me okay! whatever the present is is NOT important alright! what's more important is that you girls were there and that you girls were always there when i needed you all!! :) 

i was pretty guilty that i couldn't celebrate with oliver even though he "booked" me quite a long time ago because my parents decided that they want to go malaysia the very last minute.. i'm so so so damn sorry...












i'm so thankful for all those people who celebrated my birthday that day, not to mention ms ng! they really made my 20th birthday memorable and i'll never forget that! :) 
and of cos these people who msged me: 
yiqi, serene, sihui, beilin, MY MUMMY and DADDY, eugene, hsiufen, kim, alan, justina, xiaoting, carol, jiajun, shizheng, lilian, lewis!! :))

special thnks to jiajun! she was the one who really helped me a lot by posting all these pictures up even though she had a tight work schedule!! loads of thank you to her!! MUACKS.

LOVE YOU ALL TO BITS. =D

my heart sank abit when he asked me today. at least this time i managed to control myself.
i was surprised that he noticed me. cos i thought all this while, he dooesn't care or maybe, i'm just like his any other students.
those were the eyes that i hate to see.
those disappointed eyes.
little did i know that this time, it was really bad.
i don't even want to take a second look or even try to find if i can add any more marks..
what's the point? so what if i get a few more marks and so what if i don't?
i know i can't do the paper.
morale zero at that point. i knew i slacked.
not because of complacency but plain laziness.
the lazy bugs are crawling all over me now.
i'm disappointed in myself. really.
sorry but i just have to use this word that i hate to use and to hear but this is the only word that can describe me thoroughly and entirely.


i swear i'm going to master that stupid vectors right once and for all. i mean it.
well, reflections made, targets set.

time to move on. :)

let's just say that the practical i had on friday was... scary! i was practically laughing my way for 100 minutes. and can you believe it.. the instructor laughed with me... -.- well, but it was fun. :) if there is one thing  that will make me so shy to go there again will be those mistakes that i made on that day.:( as if wearing uniform to that place wasn't paiseh enough, i still made myself look like some clownnnn.......

uh. today was my studying day with andrea. :) was quite okay cos i did finish up what i planned to do and thats why i am hereee! i've got this very strong feeling that i am turning into some stupid nerds. i went early and it was not surprising that people were already there. i was considered one of the few "early birds". when the shutters start rolling, people went running in!! OH MY GAWDDDD. ya, and i went with the flow... eh i was super reluctant okay! i hate making myself run in the morning!!AND GUESS WHAT. MY SLIPPERS CAME OFF AGAIN AND ALL I  DID WAS TO GRAB EM' AND RUN BARE FOOTED!!! oh my image...

probably that's how the phrase "typical singaporeans" came about...

went out with the 4e1s last friday! :)) i was so happy to see them! haha! maybe cos i don't get the chance to see them everytime now that we are all in different places. that nostalgic feeling came again and suddenly i felt that i should have cherished my time in my sec sch more. apparently, everyone changed! haha! i could sense a lil more maturity in them! 

now let me introduce all my friends here. of cos this is not the whole class but half of the class was present that day! surprising eh? yeah, i'm so proud of them! :)

  
from the left: michelle, yang wei, jun long, stanley, wei jie, xuliang and ting wei


left: zhuang wei, me, jiajun, sharon, hsiu fen and lewis.


it was quite a stupid idea to sit inside thinking that because there were air cons, we would be cooler. yes there were some air cons inside but they don't seem to be working. maybe there were, but we just couldn't feel it. were perspiring even more. -.-


ya, in the end we asked for transfer to the outside tables. true enough, it was a lot better. haha!


the two musketeers... the frequency in which they were talking really don't match with ours... ahah! they can burst into laughters with just a small piece of fish..... -.- haha!


everytime we(stan and me) see each other we'll compare our height first! HA.

lor wei jie aka lor mee is not as irritating as last time! he's still as talkative but at least now he is talking some sense! haha! eh, thats a compliment!:))


ERR. ya. i dunno who was the one who suggested playing "zhong ji mi ma" and we ended up playing with this pot of... "ma la tang" and "ji tang".




ya, so now you know what i am talking about..


this xu liang is such an idiot! he was one of the accomplice who poured those disgusting stuffs into that pot.




look at the stuffs that they poured in.. uncooked prawn..............


haha! sharon was reluctant to have that soup.


he looked like big boss eh?


HA.


we wanted to catch this squirmy face but failed..


SEE. root beer somemore!


the taste was heavenly~


and they are still adding...

revenge!


we were just waiting for this chance! 


gross.


HAHA. after which we quickly ended the game for fear that we would be the next one. hah!


xuliang loves to  display his funny face everytime.






candid.


what does this reminds you of?


we girls :)


yay. i'm so happy that i am not as tanned now! :)

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i looked so unglam here. uh.

they decided to go somewhere to drink and talk..




while waiting for the traffic light to turn green. bet the people in the cars were looking...






our carousel:)

oversized.






today was the collection of the A level results.. many things went through my mind after that when i was on my way back home. the importance of that piece of paper.. 

and damn, i hit my head against that glass pane of the bus again. it was such a big bang that i couldn't continue my sleep let alone fake that nothing has happened cos apparently someone turn his head out of "concern"! i don't know if i should be  happy or not because if i hadn't banged against the glass, i would have missed my stop...